| 420 I feel so popular I have 6 active MSN windows. |
[Jul. 13th, 2009|09:38 pm] |
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| | Hallelujah - Kate Voegele | ] |
This is so cathartic I swore I would never say it until things were settled and now I can say it all over the place well not really I do have some shame yeah just a bit but anyway I seriously liked someone for the first time in my life and I don't know if it was just an extension of my narcissistic tendencies since we're really alike but I'm not going to devalue everything by thinking that way and everything has settled it has wrapped itself up in a nice little bow or at least as nice as someone like me could make it I still get sad when I think about it though I really can choose to think/feel when/what I want to so it all works out but yup I still love you ♥ not in a creepy-ex kind of way if one day you need to say things to someone I'll still listen.
Alright I'm all set for something new to happen in this life I think this is God's way of preparing me for even greater things to come so I'm really excited. Maybe even, Sexcited.
But, these are my Youtube Recommended For You videos:
#5 Sommerdrink! Pineau des Charentes auf dem Balkon! Kein Wein!
Miley Cyrus - YouTube Vlog
How to Make Hiyashi Chuka Noodles
Video Smart BeachTour 2009
Destructoid Review: Mad Dog McCree Gunslinger Pack
What what what. |
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| 418 pop it lock it polka dot it |
[Jul. 12th, 2009|11:59 pm] |
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| | Something To Do With My Hands - Her Space Holiday | ] |
I think I'm slowly and steadily coming to terms with everything but it's in an Everyone Is Slowly And Steadily Dying kind of way I want to sit around with my guitar and sing in front of loud adoring crowds actually I want to do this very often I think I'll go work harder at this and become good enough to do so.
I hate my dependence on water I really think it's the only thing that's holding me back if I didn't have to drink water all the time I could do a shitload of things like, um, things that would be hindered by my dragging-around of 2-litre bottles of water.
Okay I am going to sleep now I'm starting to get insecure and self-pity is pathetic I cannot wallow in this |
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| 417 Uh. |
[Jul. 11th, 2009|02:32 am] |
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| | Statue - Low Millions | ] |
Um. Right. How do I say this. I don't really know. Um. Yeah. I don't know how to put it. Yeah. Wait. Uh. This feels strange? Not very good at this. Eh. Ehh. I'm typing as thoughts become available so yeah. Hmm. I don't know what to do with this. I've become increasingly awkward around people I know and love and could die for but increasingly comfortable around complete strangers. Is it? Yeah. I don't know what to do with myself. Hmm. Yeah I'm praying so don't tell me to do that sometimes I just want to type things out. Uh so. Recently I don't know who to talk to. Not about anything but just talking. I'm very bad at it now. Yup. Okay I should try to sort things out. Bye bye.
ETA: All my troubles now seem to fade into the background because I realise my ear is bleeding. Wait what? |
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[Jul. 9th, 2009|07:55 pm] |
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| | Golly Sandra - Eisley | ] |
And by popular demand, behold.
So my fringe is really ugly it makes me want to die it had better not be permanent or I will sit in my room and cry myself to sleep every night. I never wanted to say this, but I really look like I'm drowning now?! Straightening my bangs has made it fall flat onto my forehead which is really fucked up and I'm going to allow myself to swear this time because it's really very bad. I hate it. My life kind of revolves around this all I can see right now when I look in the mirror is ur cb face my fringe.
This weekend is Social Event Weekend, I am going to have to sort this shit out by tomorrow. Also, getting things for PPP. And PW. Oh dear work has started again.
I think I'm falling sick. This stinks. |
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| 415 Basically what we're gonna do is dance. |
[Jul. 8th, 2009|10:49 pm] |
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| | Sneakernight - Vanessa Hudgens | ] |
Can all these musicians just die already so I can put their albums into the playlist for PPP?! Watch out everyone, in my frustration I have added Non-Dead-People music to the playlist, very Non-Dead-People. For people reading this I'm also taking requests, Tiq & Glen have sufficiently spammed me with T-Pain & Flo Rida & Lil Wayne so no more KRUP PARTY music please. But for now, thank you Kurt Cobain & Bob Marley for being dead.
H1 Chinese A-Level Oral Examinations today, but more importantly I went and got my hair neatened up except my fringe looks like hay because the new stylist straightened it?!?! which I really hate. But apart from that yay~
And I find this so funny I cannot even explain, I've been laughing at it for about 20 minutes now:
"Hi all,today my fren said something to me that really affect me a lot.....he said that many of my seconday school mates don like me cause the way i speak is guai lan....but i don talk to them at all and how they know whether i talk guai lan a not......i admit that i am quite a joker in the class and i like to tease my classmates but its just for the sake of fun and they will also tease me back.....
So now,how not to be guai lan cause i am in poly and had made new friends,i don wan them to think that i am guai lan
Any suggestion is greatly appreciated,thnx"
"maybe is ur cb face."
SGForums, never leave me ♥. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2009|07:29 pm] |
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| | I Like Chopin - Gazebo | ] |
I want to rip out my uterus. My skin is breaking out in spots, my back is aching like a geriatric, my hair is not listening to me, my appetite is going crazy and I have water retention all over my body, I can feel it even in my thighs, which is not funny, Uterus, so stop it. I'm bloated all over I could film Up! all by myself right now, I want to slink away into the darkness and hide there until this week is over.
I need more night dresses, all my dresses are day-dresses. Also need more ridiculous clothes, I lost all the cool shit when we moved over. This year I've been betraying my personal philosophy a lot, i.e. if people aren't going to stare at you on the street it's not worth wearing. |
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| 413 ANNJIE STOP CUTTING YOURSELF |
[Jul. 6th, 2009|07:50 pm] |
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| | Heart - Stars | ] |
ETA: I knew this would come except I really kind of forgot about it, but now I miss ballet. A lot. ahhhhhh
A new chapter in my life is about to unfold, I have exorcised my friends list and taken out all irrelevant communities, I'm going to work on display pictures next except all the cool shit's in my diseased Windows laptop.
I spent the day writing bad poetry I hate everything I write I want to print them all out and burn them in a very elaborate sacrifical ritual that will draw the attention of all the neighbours and tabloids because that is cause for everything, right? Anyway I wrote 4 bad love poems because I always write about death and I thought I might do something a bit more cliched than that. Yup, just a bit.
They're all really bad I cannot stop talking about how bad they are they are so bad but I love them a lot they are like my little bastard children okay I think this is the point in most of my posts where I start to lose it so I'll kill the fun for everyone and go eat now stop laughing |
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| 412 ANNJIE STOP CRYING |
[Jul. 5th, 2009|06:40 pm] |
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| | Boston - Augustana | ] |
I bought a lot of things, I'm very happy that my mom is back from whichever country she went to because now my official shopping buddy is back in action and I've had a Field Day, now I have 2 dresses, 1 top, 1 pair of shoes, 1 bag, 1 pouch, 2 hair accessories, 2 pairs of earrings. I love it when my mom says "I haven't shopped in a while, huh?" because it just means ~*~*~RECKLESS SPENDING~*~*~.
Fangirl please, Glen this is how it goes down: I go to your house on a Sunday afternoon when jamming is planned, I bum around a bit and look pretty, you go to his house and it's unkind of hosts to leave guests alone so you bring me along, I go to his house and we casually bring up that I play the guitar as well, and that's when WE GET THE PARTY STARTED~.
Apart from that, I'm going to perfect Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah, or even the Kate Voegele cover, and your new favourite cover artist for Hallelujah will be me. |
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| 411 ~*~*~i walked with you once upon a dream~*~*~ |
[Jul. 3rd, 2009|12:30 pm] |
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| | Once Upon A Dream - Sleeping Beauty | ] |
The Period Watch has been on for very long and nothing has happened yet, I think it was the stress from Blocks. I really think that that is where all the mental stamina I magically managed to muster surviving on a lack of sleep came from, I was channeling the Menstrual Force I could feel the energy coming from my ovaries.
The end of our first major exam of the year was really anti-climactic? Everyone cancelled on each other and went home to sleep and laze around and today after Chinese we all just went straight home? Yes know how to use full-stops?
I'm very angry my maid fried stuff in the kitchen without closing the kitchen door now the whole house smells like oil D< Going out with Sam later, hopefully that makes up for everything ♥. |
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| 410 word vomit |
[Jul. 1st, 2009|06:08 pm] |
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| | Ours To Keep - Kina Grannis | ] |
I was a bit angry at myself for not preparing as much as I could have because I was feeling really frustrated after Econs, the questions were answerable but I hadn't studied the topics enough, but then I started thinking about why I'm doing this in the first place so now I'm starting on Literature but ahhhh I don't want to do this for good grades anymore what has HP turned me into I used to read these things because I really liked them but now I'm just doing it so I can show the respective tutor that I'm not stupid and I'm not enjoying it at all!! actually no I don't really know what I'm talking about I will no longer embroil myself in the competition this is not my thing y'all I'm going to read nice poetry now my annotations are really quite useless things like "quite blasphemous but super k3wt ♥ ♥" good grades are secondary to my enjoyment yes / no if they come they come |
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| 409 DAY 3 BRING IT ON |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|03:03 pm] |
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| | Brothers In Arms - Dire Straits | ] |
There has never been a better feeling than when I finished the last sentence of my History class notes on the Cold War, I swear I could have gotten an orgasm then and there (sorry Glen).
KI was very mind-numbing, I really had to lie down after the 3-hour-long paper, it takes a lot out of me sitting there doing intense academic activity for 3 hours straight, when I got to Glen's house I fell asleep on her couch again. And now that History is over (which was 3 days of hell for 45 minutes of writing), and I have fallen asleep then woken up on my own couch this time, I've got the music in me again (I haven't touched the guitar since Saturday), and also conjunctivitis?!?!, so I'm too scared to touch my guitar in case I spread conjunctivitis to my guitar before you say anything there's a perfectly rational but very long explanation for this but I won't go into it.
I was looking at the tiles and 5 ants just appeared! Out of nowhere! There are no cracks in my tiles! It's like an ant-spawn thing they just appeared in the middle of my tile this is so Life Imitates Art maybe the creators of World of Warcraft were on to something after all... okay I'm obviously not thinking right now I'm going to make sweet love to my textbook.
And because I know you're reading this, I miss you ):
(yes, you.) |
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[Jun. 29th, 2009|12:29 am] |
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| | Desert Song - Hillsong | ] |
I can't get to sleep I need a hug ): ): ): |
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| 407 going 2 grenys |
[Jun. 27th, 2009|11:13 am] |
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| |  loved | ] |
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| | Creep - Guillaume Canet | ] |
ETA, Glen's house: NO VICTORIA BAD IDEA IT IS VERY HOT AND SWEATY DO NOT WEAR SWEATERS IN SUMMER IN GLEN'S HOUSE BECAUSE THERE IS NOT AIR-CONDITIONING.
I don't know why I'd rather trust myself over professional hairstylists, I keep reorganising my parting and cutting my hair to match I am going to end up bald and ugly with messy hair and no one's going to marry me. ...oh.
The days have been good~, the only thing I hate about being so uphill is that the downhill's going to come and I am going to trip over myself on the way. I have too many cute sweaters I don't care if it's summer I'm wearing them anyway I cannot bear to see them sitting in my closet for an entire year before I can bring them out again except it looks so contrived wearing sweaters in this weather ahhhhhh.
I have to readjust my sleep cycle, I woke up at 9.30 this morning and I felt like dying. |
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| 406 augghhhh |
[Jun. 26th, 2009|02:08 am] |
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| | The Little Things - Colbie Caillat | ] |
I am going to say this here, because all parties involved read me (~*~*~Miss Popular 2009~*~*~). Word of advice for the season: STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING DOES IT REALLY MATTER IT'S NOT WORTH IT GO AND SLEEP.
I have come to the careful conclusion, that IT IS ALL JUST A PRE-BLOCKS STRATEGY TO RAPE YOUR BRAIN SO YOU CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT AND EVERYONE'S SUBSCRIBING TO IT BECAUSE THEY'RE MAKING EXCUSES NOT TO STUDY YOU ARE ALL SAD AND PATHETIC PEOPLE WHO SHOULD DROWN IN A RIVERRRR O WAIT THAT'S MY THING
Too many capital letters in one post but it is well-spent, some things are not worth worrying about at 2 in the morning. |
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| 405 ...thinking... okay no not really. |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|09:37 pm] |
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| | White Horse - Taylor Swift | ] |
I had 3 hours of bulldozing my way through the Communist Victory in China and the Korean War today so I am thoroughly spent, now I'm prostituting myself all over cyberspace for texts and IMs and it isn't working because everyone is studying and either Away or Offline. I'm more important than your DotA I'm such a brat this is all I've been saying. *bratz around*
The only people entertaining me now are NSKs and Shawn Teo the Great (in more ways than one) and I feel kind of bad because two are ~retainees~ and if I distract them I'll be depriving the SAF of two able-bodied young men for yet another year.
Why do I do this to myself ahhhhh I need to learn how to say no I think this is where it all ends. RHRN |
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[Jun. 24th, 2009|10:13 pm] |
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| |  chipper | ] |
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| | Never Even Told Me Her Name - Air Traffic | ] |
Today has been the most productive studying day! Ever! I'm almost done with the Microeconomics textbook so when I don't feel like studying History I'll go through the class notes and that's it for Econs for me. I'm still quite unprepared but there's less than a week left so I'll make do. Then I made up and got out of the house and I'm feeling good~ The excitement of getting dressed up was enough to bring me through an entire day of Supply Theories and Cost Theories so maybe I should do this every day, A++. I know, my daily motivations are always too complex and metaphysical, I should tone the philosophy down a bit.
But my entire wandering nomad plan for today was ruined because there were showers all day and I didn't leave the house until my mom came around with the carriage chariot car for dinner.
Tomorrow is a new day! I will read my History notes! Cuban Missile Crisis YO ASS IZ MINE |
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| 403 typing up things as they come to me |
[Jun. 23rd, 2009|09:46 pm] |
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| | Hoedown Throwdown - Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus | ] |
Frustrated, angsty, stop being such a teenager, Victoria.
I'm going out to buy myself a lot of pretty bows in wine and pink and white and baby blue ♥.
I want to get dressed up and get out of the house, I've been sitting here the whole day, I need to put on a pair of heels and walk around shopping centres and feel good about myself.
I kind of want to jam somewhere except everyone is studying so No Fun For Me and Eliza sent me this video of a guy covering the bass of Can't Stop and I really want to play with instruments right now. Hehe, play with instruments. I think I just need a lot of attention I have insane youngest child syndrome and I want to throw things out of the window except my windows are grilled, which is very fortunate because by now I think I would have thrown every piece of furniture out that window.
A lot of the time, I wish I was Miley Cyrus.
I'M SO NEEDY AUGGGGHHHHHHH |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2009|08:46 pm] |
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| | I Need Some Sleep - Eels | ] |
No this cannot be it. This cannot be the day my fun ends!!! This cannot be the day I have to give up Happy Tiemz and resign myself to Hardc0re Study Tiemz!!! This day was always the day that seemed somewhere in the distant future but now it's ALL UP IN MY FACE BITCH-SLAPPING ME AND I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH THIS RIGHT NOW.
I had this awesome plan planned that I was going to carry out this holidays but I haven't done it yet and it's completely not going to work out now because of this nonsense and I miss Glen like crazy I am going to smother that girl when I see her. If you are reading this, I'M MAKING A HUGE KISSY FACE AT YOU RIGHT NOW PREASE 2 B WATCHING OUT.
Holing myself up for the next few days, call me beep me if you wanna reach me, just don't text me 'cos I'll start ripping my own fingers off. |
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| 401 Shout-out to my brother, who I know is reading this. |
[Jun. 21st, 2009|11:13 pm] |
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| | Milord - Edith Piaf | ] |
STOP LEAVING PUBIC HAIR ALL OVER THE BATHROOM FLOOR D<
We ran out of shower cream so I used my brother's Men's one, I feel very strange something's taking over me I'm going to start sprouting testicles. |
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